Looking forward to....

Walking down the isle to marry my one and only!! Right now it is about the only thing I am looking forward to. I LOVE my job, however, I am just a substitute teacher and my time in this classroom is coming to an end most likely next month. I have no idea what is in store for me after I am done in this classroom and that breaks my heart! I hope and pray that there is a contract for me for next school year but who knows at this point...

I absolutely love my man, he is the best thing to happen to me and has given me tons of strength especially through this tough time in getting another teaching credential and continuing on as a substitute. He has great hope for the future for it all working out and keeps the light at the end of my tunnel lite when I often feel that it has burnt out on me.

FINALLY!

I am finally able to post again after nearly a year of no word. That is all thanks to be sooooo busy with the credential program though Fresno Pacific University. So thank you FPU for the life I did not have! JK

I am also FINALLY finished with my credential! Yay!! I am so excited, I actually have class on Monday where I will present my project, then I will be officially FINISHED. OMG it has taken 5 years of college to be able to say that, I AM OFFICIALLY FINISHED WITH SCHOOL...oh that feels so good!

Now if I would only get hired on somewhere to teach...but the applications will be going out EVERYWHERE!! So there has got to be something somewhere someone can hire me for right? Gosh I hope so!

To All The Veterans Out There

Thank you for the great sacrifices made throughout our country's history! To those who gave their live we would not have the many great freedoms we have today if it were not for their selflessness. To those who have been fortunate to come back from war and hug and kiss their families we are forever as greatful to you as those who have died serving, the things you see and do for those you do not know requires strength that I and many do not posses to do what you do. For these things I will forever honor those who serve no matter my feelings on the war at hand. I cannot express my gratitude enough to the many heroes who walk among us and who have fallen in war.
Veterans are dear to my heart, close in my family, and forever held high in my eyes. To my great grandfather who has recently passed, his service in WWII will never be forgotten. To my brother, his many deployments during this War on Terror, in Cuba and Iraq. To my Uncle Brian who served during both Desert Storm and the War on Terror. To my Great Uncle Donny who served in Vietnam. And to many other men in my family who have served in a branch of the military and served their country in other ways other than war, nevertheless are they just as important. I thank God for the family of servers I have been given and for the wonderful and dear opportunity I have to be related to such selfless sacrificing servers of their country.
In rememberance of all our heroes, THANK YOU! You will never be forgotten. God Bless!

Do It Anyway

Here's the song I was looking for by Martina McBride

"Do It Anyway"

You CAN spend your whole life buildin'
Something from nothin
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You CAN chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway
God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anywayI do it anyway
This worlds gone crazy
And it's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all YOUR heart
For all the right reasons
And in a moment they can choose to walk away
love em anyway
God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yeah I do it anyway,
YEAH, You can pour your soul out singin'
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yeah sing it anyway,
YEAH, YEAH
I sing
I dream
I love anyway, yeah.

God's Will

Things have been extremely stressful lately, everything that could happen basically has... anyways I am not complaining about it because I truly believe that God has given me such peace in my life at this time that the stress of everything is not overcoming my spirits or my faith. He is great and has both taken away and given me so much and I could not have more faith in Him than I do now. I am truly at peace with life in spite of all the negative in life right now. And I do believe that a LOT of the peace He has given me has come from the sweet sweet supportive man that He brought into my life nearly 8 years ago, I would not be the person I am today if it were not for this wonderful man.

I leave you with the lyrics to a Martina McBride Song "God's Will" (it's not the one I was looking for but fits well)

I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
It hid the braces on his legs at first
His smile was as bright as the August sun
When he looked at me
As he struggled down the driveway,
it almost Made me hurt
Will don't walk too good
Will don't talk too good
He won't do the things that the other kids do,
In our neighborhood
[Chorus:]
I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
Lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother's miracle
I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin'I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was untilI knew God's Will
Will's mom had to work two jobs
We'd watch him when she had to work late
And we'd all laugh like I hadn't laughed
Since I don't know when
Hey Jude was his favorite song
At dinner he'd ask to pray
And then he'd pray for everybody in the world but him
[Chorus]
Before they moved to California
His mother said, they didn't think he'd live
And she said each day that I have him,
well it's just another gift
And I never got to tell her, that the boy
Showed me the truth
In crayon red, on notebook paper, he'd written
Me and God love you
I've been searchin', prayin', wounded, jaded
I guess I would be still
Yeah that was until...
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves

Stop Signs, Cops, and Court...

Due to the mere fact that I was on my way home from work but not before going by the KCSOS office to get a new substituting credential and going by the store to pick up a couple necessities and stamps, I really really had to pee, and I hate using public restrooms...On my way home listening to the radio as always the new Carrie Underwood song, It's just a Dream, or something like that was on, super sad and me with slightly teary eyes plus holding in my liquids from the day I made a "California Stop" at the stop sign around the corner from my house... Aren't these legal?! They have a name that is especially for us Californians! Well apparently the cop on his motorcycle does not agree with my theory unfortunately, however me so dumb struck by the fact that this is the FIRST time I have ever been pulled over by a cop in my 6 years of driving I was unable to plead a case and simply thanked the man when he handed me my ticket with my court date written on the bottom. Yes, you read that right, I thanked the man! What else was I supposed to say? Up Yours, no one was around besides you, which by the way you were hiding very well! Frusterated and in tears I put the car in drive, put my blinker on, and drive the last 200 yards to my house and went to the bathroom. So needless to say I will NEVER make my loving California Stop again, because apparently the have the same things I tell my students, "Eyes in the back of their heads" oh yes and my students believe me!

One converstation on "eyes in the back of my head" with a kindergartener in the class I am student teaching:

girl: "Guess what!"

me: "what?!"

girl: "Mrs. Jensen has eyes in the back of her head!"

me: "I know! and guess what else."

girl: "What?!"

me: "so do I!"

girl: "REALLY?!"

me: "Yep"

girl: " wow, I didn't know that and you can see from them like her?"

me: "yes I can"

I so love the innocense and gullibility of young ones, I remember being on the receiving end of it, still am sometimes!

After 18 Long but Worthwhile Months...

I am FINALLY considered a college graduate! Yes even though I walked across the stage in a cap and gown and moved that tassel from the right to the left, 2 months ago, I am now officially finished with all my courses for my BA!!! YAY! The fact that I still have almost a year to go on my teaching credential is another story, or blog, but I, along with the other 11 I've been in school with, have completed our weekly Tuesday night courses as one cohort and are moving on to bigger and better things! Although this brought some sadness, due to the fact we will no longer sit in the exact same seats as we did when we started February of 2006, or have pizza once every 5th Tuesday, thanks to my group and our unwillingness to cook, except for the amazing last supper, per say :) Anyways it was bitter sweet, but the chocolate fountain wasn't!

So anyways, thank you to all who have supported me and stuck by the craziness of school! I have made one huge step and still have another ahead of me, but slowly it is becoming smaller. There will be a day when I no longer have to do homework, I'll just be the one grading it!