Trying to Figure out my Life...

Ok I really know that I am a women when my mind changes on a daily basis! I think and think and think about the same thing all day every day and can't seem to bring it all into one neat little package of mindset... This baby's face is what I feel like! I have no clue where things are going or what is going to happen, that is the GREAT thing about college AND family! I really thought that my life had neatly fallen into place all by itself, then suddenly my neat planned out life in a box was turned upside down and is beeing shaken empty, it is such a wonderful feeling! Love is wonderful, that isn't the issue, it is where school is leading me and where my family is trying to drag me...

Anyways the sermon today preached on worry and complaining, yes it sounds as if I'm complaining up above, and I am slightly, however currently my mind is at ease and I have a game plan in mind, lets see if that stays that way after tonight. After all I am a woman and with that intitled to change my mind...constantly.

This is how it should always be!

Come on home Brandon! Along with all the other troops across seas! We love you and thank you for all you do! We're so PROUD!

Love

All the money in the world could not replace the feeling I get when I'm around the man I love and have loved for 7 years, 2 months, and 7 days! Every breath we breathe, move we make, word we speak, and step we take, it is in sync. Everything is done in love and we are continually taking our individual moves into thought on how it will affect the other... which can bring sacrifices of our own wants and needs while in the end it will benefit the both of us. After all this time together, I still can't get enough of him! It's crazy and amazing all at the same time.

The issues others bring up about our relationship actually work for us! So why do others see it as an issue? Well it's simply because they are not us and do not nor do they see everything that goes on around us or inside our hearts. Simply said, things are not always going to be 50/50 in all aspects of concern...amongst other things that are continuously brought up in casual conversation. All in all we have made it through the hardest of times, battling friends, outsiders, and even family at times. Yeah we have chosen different routes than others but in the end I think that our road of choice has made for a smoother ride and greener pastures in the end!

This is our song and always will be: for you and only you baby!

YOU'RE STILL THE ONE (Shania Twain)

When I first saw you, I saw love.

And the first time you touched me, I felt love.

And after all this time,

you're still the one I love.

Looks like we made it

Look how far we've come my baby

We mighta took the long way

We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"

But just look at us holding on

We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)

You're still the one I run to

The one that I belong to

You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)

You're still the one that I love

The only one I dream of

You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better

I'm glad we didn't listen

Look at what we would be missin

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"

But just look at us holding on

We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)

You're still the one I run to

The one that I belong to

You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)

You're still the one that I love

The only one I dream of

You're still the one I kiss good night

(You're still the one)

You're still the one I run to

The one that I belong to

You're still the one I want for life

(You're still the one)

You're still the one that I love

The only one I dream of

You're still the one I kiss good night

I'm so glad we made it

Look how far we've come my baby

Bitchiness

Ok well these last few months have been very stressfull and frusterating between finishing my bachelors, figuring out my graduate studies, and trying to figure out what I will be doing for work this summer and next school year. I feel that I may have came off bitchy at times because of my own personal stresses, and I apologize for that! I don't mean to be that way, but stress can do that and the best of friends will be there to point it out and talk you through those irritable times. Life is complicated and just as I thought I had it all figured out God decided to laugh at me and steer me in a slightly different direction, and as I'm heading down another path I'm looking over at the other paths near me and thinking about changing again! I'm so confused at this point, do I teach elementary or single subject? Do I get my masters in math or early childhood development, or even english because that's starting to sound fun.... can my mind go in any more spastic and different ways?! I'm coming down to starting a program in 1 month and my mind is still directing itself in a variety of ways, all of which lead to teaching (thank God! I don't think I can handle a totally different change in careers!) Anyways hopefully it will all come to me, and soon please, about what it is I am supposed to do and how I am going to get there.